It's Still Kickin'

I like control, which would explain why I dont exactly like authority figures. I like driving and the sense of freedom I possess when I drive, I like the assumed control over the car. In hitting a snowdrift the other day I lost control over of the car, the car then took control over me, spinning me around and into a telephone pole, with at most a 12 inch diameter, only placed every (insert correct amount) feet apart, yet in most accidents the car is drawn to hit the pole rather then the large amount of space between the poles, weird, huh?
I find it so interesting that a human's mind can block out what it dosen't want to think about, that when something unexpected happens in an instand that a person wouldn't remember what happen. I remember going around the corner, at about 25 mph, probably 500 feet ahead the snowdrifts began, I didnt look at the speed-o-meter, I don't think I hit the brakes, I remember moving the steering wheel and saying a few choice words over and over again, when I lost all control I thought I had obtained, I could see that the front drivers side door was headed toward a standing pole that has caused so many deaths, it so happened that I was going to be the victum of this pole, I remember jerking the wheel so hard to the right trying to prevent what I probably overexagerated as death, the window turned white (more like the color of snow after the snow plow went by on a sanded road, whatever color you choose to call it) the white prevented me from seeing where I was headed and if my body was going to be taken victum of this pole, when everything stopped, finally, the pole wasnt beside me, but it was three feet behind me, where it hit between the back seat window and the back window, not breaking any glass and not breaking me. After I came out of my fog a truck drove upon the scene, a was crying my eyes out, poor old guy was like "um, are you, like okay?" I assured him that I was fine, my car would probably need surgery, this particular part of that day is kind of amusing to look back on, the guy didnt know what to say, and I wasn't all too helpful, I'm sure.
The snow plow went by five minutes later (perfect timing, huh?) Eight to ten people stopped to see if I was okay, this, in a sense shows the charm of The County, the charm that I hope my children can grow up and be a part of. In first response we assumed the car was totaled, as for an old car, however, after two and half hours, my dad was able to get the metal frame off of the side of the tire, making the good ole wagon once again driveable. Scared? Yes, out of my brains, but everything worked out so perfectly (as far as the situation can go) We have one less usable door, a large dent, a lack of paint; as the commercial would say, new body work and a new paint job. :-)

I was able to go snowboarding for the first time this season yesterday. My arms and legs are sore, but this is just what i was hoping for!:-)

It's the Little Things

Often I find myself in the midst of shuffle conforming to what is seemingly right amongst the crowd. It's usually the little things that snaps us out of this materialistic haze, I guess. The other day I was going into town a little later then I was supposed to, conveniently enough, i left my camera at home, in turning around I got myself stuck on this 6 inch square of ice, it seemed so pathetic that I wasnt able to get myself off of this little woods road because of this small portion of ice, i got frustrated and tears came to my eyes. It may have been the weirdest moment i've experienced in all my life, I got so angry and refused to call my mother to ask her to come help me, if I didnt do this on my own I was weak, pathetic. After about ten minutes I stopped, and screamed 'Jesus' I myself was held back by this and proceeded to cry, after a couple minutes I realized how silly it was for me to be sitting here alone with help such a short distance away. I inhaled and exhaled slowly a couple times and called my mom, she said shed be right there and all that good stuff, I prayed a breif prayer. out of despiration? maybe. I put the car in drive and allowed it to roll forward, as I tapped the gas lightly I got out so easily. I had to cry out for help in order to get out of this situation, it was a situation that I, myself have yet to learn how to deal with. Grace, maybe? I got out and got to town just on time.

thats how it goes

Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I hadn't met this one person, no one person in particular, but there are so many people that influence me, teach me things, even if i dont hang out with them, like them..hate them. They've affected me, shown me not to do something, shown me that this action is a good one, and this one is bad...I'm molded by the teachings of those around me. No matter how long ago something was I remember what people do, have done, how they made me feel, how others react..my uncle used to play 'this little piggy' with me all the time, he would joke with me, he was awesome. I often find myself playin 'this little piggy' with my neice because its something i can't ever forget and it makes her giggle the same way it did me. Some of my friends taught me its better to be independent then always rely on other people; people will fail you...Just a thought. :)

five years later..

After September 11th, 2001 so many families in America became united, so many people realize how much they have, families became united to other families, the United States became united as a whole; Why does something terrible have to happen for people to realize the world isnt perfect, to realize that they need the family members they havnt talked to in six years. But thats the way it all seems to work.

ohh..

I love when the leaves change colors, it's my favorite time of year (besides when i can snowboard of course). I often complain about where I'm living, how I'm living and a bunch of junk, but in all reality when I think about it, I know i've been blessed x like 5643541354321, I have the ability to go outside and run for miles and I wouldn't be trespassing, i can look out my window & see blue skies and multicolored trees. I'm surrounded by family at all times (no joke) My family isn't living in poverty, i don't live in a third world country, i have food to eat, clothes to wear, people that love me, yet at times i get angry at God for taking soemthing so little away, doesn't seem to make much sense.

It's September 11th, 2006, or should I say 11 September 2006 or 9-11-06 (or the preferred 9/11/06) I'm tired, drainded, jobless, sinful and weak; just where God wants me. Summer has come and gone - it may or may not have been wasted. I'm not reassured to ponder the thought of whether or not I wasted two months of my life on materialistic worldly matters.

Oh the Joys of Working

I don't were a sign around my neck indicating which religion i do or do not choose to follow; shouldn't my body language speak that for me? I don't speak words of the bible in public places, I don't go out of my way to tell someone of the amazing things God has done in my life and in the lives around me. I work in a public place, I'm not told to not share my religious beleifs, however along with many other jobs, it's not really something I'm trying to bring up in conversation as i'm ringing their various types of flowers through the computer.
As far as flowers go, this time marks an end, there are few people that come in to buy flowers so it becomes a bit easier to remember customers that have been walking by. One guy stuck out to me, he was wearing nice clothes (not ripped or stained) but nothing that I noticed to be name brand, he was talking on his cell phone the majority of the time he was there...I suppose I would say he came off as a bit stuck up. He finally hung up his cell phone and came to ask me a few questions. He was looking at a few damaged items and said he didn't want them unless he got them at a discounted price(no biggie i suppose.) I took a few dollars off the item, he proceeded to talk to another employee in which he tried to get another bargin on an item...he succeeded, when he came to pay i mentioned the bargin he got. He stood quietly for a moment and proceeded to say a bible verse about asking and recieving (yes, this slightly appeared to be stuck up guy mentioned the bible:O) I thought that was out of the ordinary, he continued to say he was involved in Christian ministries and the passion he had for what he did. Due to the lack of buisness we had at the time we talked for a few minutes about it, then he asked if I was a believer and i anwsered yes and he rejoiced in that. This middle aged guy a couple hours away from home said to me in the nicest way possible that I have a light and i should let it shine, don't hide it behind a bush (the song). He didnt know me, nor me him; we'll probably never see each other again, yet he gave me wisdom that I may carry with me throughout the rest of my life.

This story probably seems very minute to all of you; but hey, i though it was cool:-)

Cartoons are so over rated

"I don't like shows; just Oprah."

--Kaleb

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http://www.firstchoicerealestate.com/detail.asp?item=12943

So it's official..

So let me get this straight...

Kaleb talking to my mom on the phone..

Kaleb: Grammy, are you my real grandmother?

Mom: Yes...

Kaleb: Okay. Did you know that my mom (emphasized) is your (emphasized) daughter?

April Vacation

I've learned a lot(or a little) over vacation. Since I'm not so great at explaining myself, I think I'll make a list.
A.)I'm around Christians a lot, I havn't been around them so much (at all) this week and I've noticed a change. I was sick previous to the chior leaving and I missed church last Sunday, so it's been like a week and a half since i've been around "christian people." I'm not going out to have sex or get drunk tonight, but I could, and my "christian friends" probably wouldn't find out. As important as they are to me, they shouldn't matter when it comes to choosing which choices are good and which are bad, God's always watching. I don't think I'm alone in this state of mind, but I don't know how to escape this state of mind, but pray...pray....pray, and read the bible.
B.)I'm an ESFP as of 11:30 pm on April 21, 2006.
C.)I really hate vacations...they add time on to the end of the school year. When I get to get out of school for a week it makes me realize how much I hate school and how much I would rather be at home...but then again - I don't run the school system

D.)I'm glad I have more then five friends.
E.)I love my neice and nephew more then anything in this world.
F.)An online quiz tells me I'm most likely OCD...(and nothing is more reliable then online quizzes;))

Christianity VS. Blue Jeans

There are people in the world that know the bible through ang through, however they don't fully understand what everything means, they take it out of context. Most athiests I know, know a lot about the bible, they know about what Christ is said to have done in the bible but they feel as though it's all false? Many athiests will go out of their way to point out that they are indeed an athiest and explain all their reasoning as to why they are such. I don't fully understand why a person would persistantly want to say that they think Christians are dumb, that they think the bible is incorrect, if I went around saying "I don't agree with people wearing blue jeans and here are all the reasons why I don't believe in people wearing blue jeans.."I'd probably commonly get the evil eye and the *you're an idiot* look on a regular basis, how's this different?ugh...utterly confused/annoyed...

"The worst prision is a closed heart."

-sign outside mapelton baptist

I'm Yellow, Who are you?

Kayla, I have a present for you, JUST for you. It's the Power Rangers DVD, want me to go put it in?

-Kaleb

(this was when I was watchin tv, wasn't that nice of him, to get me such an awesome present:-):-p)

...so they're finally here:-) 

We havn't exactly managed to get a picture of them together.. 

...and it still stands 

That Dr. Phil Guy; He's so Nice...

The Lively Center of Attention
Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
http://psychcentral.com/personquiz.htm

Random Confusion

Our Saviors

[1] Kneel on the ground and pray to the Lord

But will he hear your prayers

Will hear your call,

As you sit in the church

And the madman speaks...Listen with awe at the lies he'll preach.

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[2] Only the mindless.. will listen and obeyWorldwide wars... are caused by this uproar...

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[3] Pray.. to... rest... your conscience - for the sins youhave done...

Where is your god now as you're dying alone

Brutal wounds cut deep

No miracles to heal

Watch your life now fade

He's not there to help you die...

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[4] Raised upon repulsive lies

From the time we were born

Driven into heads, holy laws...

Cast into a circle of preaching vomit

All decent holy people

Their conscience free

Massive neurosis and impending doom

And the holy power will be silent.

[Repeat verses 2, 3, 4]

(don't know the name of the band..)

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Okay, well first of all , I'm utterly confused. Am I allowed to say I think that's stupid?Kayla=muy lost.

Chicken Noodle Soup

Did anyone watch Oprah tonight? They had some interesting thoughts on religion.

Are you a Freak?

I was looking up lyrics and I came across this lovely quiz that's called "are you a freak?" here are my results:

Need to be unique: You do not feel that you need to be very unique.
Need to NOT conform: You like to be different than others around you.
Willingness to express dissent: You tend to keep quiet when you don't agree with others.

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I think it said I was a freak. What are you?:-D: http://www.outofservice.com/freak/

Only Time..

I talked to Kaleb on the phone the other day and he talked about his new Woody movie, it was really weird to think that I hadn't seen him in like...some odd months and I still expect to hear him begging to watch Woody.

I talked (to use the term loosly) to Kylie on the phone today, she merely said the word "dog" over and over again, but hey, w/e!..her voice has changed a lot, and she's walking, talking, woah! Amazing Blessings:)

I was writting the date on my espanol paper this morning and it slapped me in the face that is was January 26th; to many of you that may mean absolutly nothing, but it's been two years since my great.....aunt died, she was old, yet she was one of the most amazing people I'd ever met, it doesn't feel like two years since she's died, a woman full of knowledge, I'll never forget all the times she talked about the generation gaps and what not, old people may possibly be the most blunt people, great memories to reflect on:-D

One Year Bible

Someone gave me a one year bible last night, I quickly came to this conclusion:

I may possibly be quick to judge, especially when it comes to my awesome reading skills *big 'S' on my forehead for the slower ones* but, I don't think I could read (and understand) that much reading in one day. I may possibly be the only one that does like this, and feel like a total idiot after I post this, but a lot of times I can't read (and understand) more then a few verses at a time.

The End.

P.S: I choose the NIV Bible, for those that are wondering:-p

Crime TV

Okay, I like to watch CSI, Cold Case, American Justice, City Confidential... A.K.A fake crime tv. I've come to realize that the only reason i watch the shows is because i want to see why this crazy person has decided to take the life of another person. I've also come to realize that the people that do decide to kill someone are incredibly stupid....why would you leave your hair down while murdering someone? Why would they not wear gloves? Why wouldn't they think of a good alibly? Why wouldn't the memorize a story so they didnt have to make stuff up off the top of their heads. I wouldn't be a good murderer, I dont like to hurt other people, it's icky.

How is it possible to miss someone so much? 

Society

I respect that society views certain words to be wrong, but I don't understand how some words have become "bad words" and other words that mean the same thing are okay; That the word gay could be transformed from meaning "happy" to describing a persons sexuality. I don't fully understand why drinking alcohol, doing drugs and having sex has become "a thing teens do." Why would anyone would allow their children to become alcoholics at 15, be in rehab by 20 *or dead on the side of the road.* It's all come to be so acceptable...

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I don't think people should waste their time "meeting the Barkers."

January 2, 2006

Vacation went by fast, I feel confident that school will go by slow. Over the past week I've gotten used to going to bed at one, but havn't been used to getting up at 6:30; tomorrow should be interesting.

*It feels like there is a huge hole inside of me; I'm desperate for God.

*Kaleb talked to my mom on the phone yesterday, to hear his voice made me want to hold him in my arms and tell him I love him over and over and over again.

*If I'm going to make a resolution on a certain day of every year, I'd rather make it on my birthday then on the first day of the new year.

*My camera broke on Saturday, I wanted to cry, however, I was able to switch it for a new one. (small blessings)

*How many more days 'til the memorial day retreat?

*I saw Brandi Clark today.

Christmas

Christmas has come. Christmas has past. I wonder how many people celebrated Christmas that don't believe in Christ...I wonder how many people didn't go to church on Christmas because their day was too busy...I think the worst quote I herd on CHRISTMAS was "I can't believe you had to go to f'n chuch on christmas, you ruined the Christmas spirit."

Lack of a Title

Despite my many worries for my neice and nephew I'm so thankful for the way that God has blessed them in this season. Although many may say that the company that sponsered Jen's family blessed them, I'd dare to diagree. Jen, Kaleb and Kylie recieved a thousand dollars worth of gifts and gift cards, how neat that God would choose to bless them during the Christmas season..

Yeh

I have a common habbit of typing long posts about something I've been thinking about for weeks, then deleting them; I'm going to do my best not to delete my posts now.

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My dad just finished nursing school-while he was still in school he spent several weeks learning about infant phycology; this may sound far more interesting to me then it does to you, but I've found myself to be quite intersted in it. When Kylie was up here, dad would often mention why she did certain things and what caused her to do them...blah, blah, blah....it's kinda cool considering infants can't talk, and anything that happens to them has to be interpreted*sp* where as a three or four year old will come straight out and tell you whats wrong...

Stars

I was amazed to look up and see the sky blanketed with stars tonight. When I got home Ryan was standing by the steps staring up at the sky, I found that to be slightly weird (considering most people don't stand outside in the freezing cold staring at the sky) so I decided I'd look up too. When I saw the stars I was amazed, and was reminded of a night that doesnt feel too long ago when Lydia and I stayed awake under the stars, amazed by the blessings surrounding us, praying outloud, crying....anyway my point being, Ryan listened to us that night, and I can't help but think it made him think and possibly that he was thinking about that, like I was, when he saw the star covered sky; on this freezing cold night...